Thank you.
Because of you I am more bold and more wise. It is not because you treated me so well. No, in fact, quite the opposite. You played games and tried to get me to earn your attention and your affection. You set unattainable standards of perfection and shamed me when I did not meet your expectations. You tried to tell me I was unworthy, unlovable, ungrateful, unwilling to compromise. In actuality, I was compromising. Compromising all I was and all I dreamed of becoming.
The craziest part of all is not that you treated me so poorly, but that I began to believe I deserved to be disrespected and dishonored. I forgot who I was and who I represented. A far greater entity than you.
But, in your own hurt and brokenness, you tried to break me. So, I thank you.
Thank you for being the straw that broke the camels back. I'm not one for cliches, you know that, but you are that piece of straw. You were the last of countless men who will get away with devaluing me and tearing me down. Because of everything we went through, I emerged better. More brilliant. More sparkly than ever. It's amazing, really. Like the refining fire, the pain I endured while we were together actually exposed someone more radiant and resilient. Delicate, not fragile. Grounded, not settled. I thank you for your part in my journey to become this woman.
I am not angry. Not anymore. And, I do not hate you. Rather, I hope you, too, can reach a point of thankfulness for the lessons learned. May forgiveness set you free from the torment and burden of holding onto hatred. May you look back on our time together and see growth in yourself.
Until then, good-bye. I put away all disdain, doubt, and mistrust and eagerly pursue my next dazzling adventure.
Sincerely,
Kelsey
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