No Makeup Challenge Week 1

February 2, 2009

Day 1

Today is my first day of the no makeup challenge. (For info on the challenge, see truecampaign.org). I rolled my eyes at the thought of not wearing makeup for an entire month. Subsequently, I skipped February 1. But, over the past few days, I have not been able to get it off my mind. “Be radical, step out, and tackle this challenge.”

My friends are extraordinarily supportive, but I feel like they do not really see a point of depriving myself of makeup. Actually, I don’t really understand why I want to do this either. At least it’s only for the month of February and this journey/torture will be over in 28 days. It could be worse and go for a whole 31 days! (Such an optimist!)

 

February 3, 2009

Day 2

If I were not so strong willed, I would quit this challenge right now. What have I got myself into? I have some serious mixed emotions. Something is tugging at my heart, so I know I need to do this. But, I don’t want to go to school today. I don’t want anyone to see me. What will people think? I am honestly worried that people will think that I look incomplete without makeup and that I need to go even out my skin tone and highlight my eyes. Ok, they probably will not think those exact words, but what if people notice?

 

February 8, 2009

Day 7

The month without makeup challenge has surprised me. Not like, “Surprise, you look great without makeup!” It’s deeper than that, not what I expected. I am surprised at how easy it has become. I don’t feel challenged to not wear makeup. I’ve actually enjoyed it! (Today I like it; I didn’t like it the other day when I felt gross.)

I have been free to be me. Cliché? Yes. But, it’s true. When I took off the Maybelline mask, a cascade of heart issues were enabled to surface. This past week, I have acknowledged my insecurities and self-consciousness, but also recognized an unfamiliar facet of Kelsey. I’m sure it’s been there this whole time, but I have been too focused on outward “stuff” to ever give it the time of day.

I am quirky, a little nerdy, fascinated by the human body. I am organized and scheduled. I cry often and laugh even more. I am ultra feminine, a girly girl some might say. And that is ok!

All in all, I have come to the conclusion and truly believe that a person is so much more than his or her outer self. (Although not to be disassociated.) I’m sure some of you have realized and owned this truth before me, and I commend you for doing so.

I am free to be me…free to read a book instead of go out, free to cry while watching a chick flick by myself, free to let out and embrace my girly giggle, free to love being a woman.

Who would have thought the first week of a month without makeup would not really be about the makeup?!