I found myself reminiscing this morning. Reminiscing on good and tough times, fond and not-so-lovely memories, joys and blessings, victories and failures. In it all, was the reminder that through the grace of Christ, the refining of God Almighty, I am becoming a new person.
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come. The old has gone, the new is here!"
2 Corinthians 5:17
The Word of God is alive and true, penetrating the innermost places of my being (Hebrews 4:12).
Frequently, I forget just how lonely and desolate life was before I was following Jesus. I was absorbed in my own issues and selfishness. I could not trust or forgive. The pursuit of thinness consumed every thought and action. I just wanted to be beautiful and loved and cherished by someone. Anyone.
Below, is an excerpt from my journal. It is dated May 12, 2008, the day after I turned 21.
"Rays of sun touch down on the ground, gently kissing the new greens of springtime and all is wonderfully still. I look out the window right now and am filled with a peace I have not felt in awhile. It's a peace I have not been quiet enough to hear or patient enough to wait for.
I've been praying that Jesus would show me He is pursuing me, show me I am so beautiful to Him. I know that this morning is my morning, it's the day he has decided to romance me. I can see this by the millions of fresh dots of dew on the grass, glistening more radiantly than the finest diamond. And, still, our Lord thinks I am more beautiful. I feel so secure, so treasured, so wanted."
While reading this, I remembered the promise of Philippians 1:6, "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."
I am no longer that girl, the girl who so earnestly sought approval from everyone, the girl who could not see her beauty was in Christ. Today, I am thankful that I know I am His girl and my security is in The Lord.
"A man's steps are established by the Lord, and He takes pleasure in his way. Though he falls, he will not be overwhelmed, because the Lord holds his hand."
Psalm 37:23-24
Today, I praise God for the good work he has accomplished in me. I praise Him for his good story. And, today, I pray you see the glory of the Lord and come to know you are secure in and treasured by The Lord Almighty.
Grace and peace,
KC
